I’m sitting naked on the toilet. I’ve been sitting here for an hour and a half. The shower has been running the entire time and the hot water has been used up. All my roommates are gone and won’t be back in until tomorrow. I can’t call them because my phone is charging on my desk. They can’t help me. No one can help me now.
The trash can is empty. There are no clothes on the bathroom floor because I undressed before I even came into the bathroom.
There are paper towels in the kitchen, but that’s 25 feet away, and all the neighbors would be able to see me walking, crouched down in shameful discomposure, through the windows. All of which are open.
My towel hangs on the wall, silently laughing its 2-ply, ring-spun, combed African cotton taunts at me. It knows I can’t use it to get out of this mess. Using it would only make the mess worse.
I’ve flushed I-don’t-know-how-many times. I stopped counting once I realized you can’t time the flushes to create a decent splashback.
Hell is not other people. That’s ridiculous. Hell is the long, dark solitude that leads to fantasies of owning a bidet. Hell is longing for even the tiniest scrap of those subscription inserts that fall out of magazines. Hell is being here, in this situation, with absolutely no toilet paper.